Never hide who you are Millie's Story

People always say ‘it’s just a horse’. They think that these animals are just something that we get on a ride, not something that we have any form of deeper connection with.

When Millie faced some extensive challenges in her life, her horse, Flyte was, at times, the only thing that kept her going.

‘’When I was five years old, my Dad had multiple heart attacks and was diagnosed with vascular dementia. This diagnosis alone was crippling for me, but I was also contending with bullying at the same time.

My mental health was in a bad way and I planned to take my own life several times.

During this time, I also suffered a severe physical and emotional trauma that pushed me to the very end of my rope.

  The only constant I had during this time, the only thing that gave me any sort of hope that one day I might get through this, was Flyte. I’d sit in her field during the night when I felt like I couldn’t cope.
She gave me so much comfort, she made me feel like I wasn’t alone. 

I was diagnosed with chronic PTSD and trauma induced psychosis and was sectioned for three years in a hospital that was miles away from home. I spent a large percentage of those three years under sedation as even being awake was too much for me, it was like the lights were on, but there was no one home.

One evening, there was an emergency on my ward and I remember lying in my bed trying to block out the noise and commotion. I closed my eyes and I was back with Flyte, bathing her in the sunshine, in that moment I felt completely at peace and I knew that wherever I went, she was with me.

  My life has changed a lot, I’ve faced a lot and overcome even more. I’ve been offered a full scholarship for an acting school in New York and I’m looking forward to starting a new chapter there next September. 

I’m proud of how far I’ve come. People need to know that you should never hide what you’ve been through, it makes you who you are. I hid for such a long time and all it did was cause me heartache. I will be forever indebted to Flyte, without her I don’t know where I would be now.

Horses truly are a gift and I will treasure her for eternity.

Riders Minds is such a valuable resource for equestrians, just having somebody there to talk to at any time of day will make a huge difference in some peoples lives, I wish it had been around when I was struggling." 

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